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Weird. I could've sworn it was 3am. I got home around 10pm, pero feeling ko, I've been home for like, 3+ hours. :|
Things change. It's the inevitable fact of life. Change is the only constant thing in this world, as someone said. Ang stupid nung mga quote na ganyan. It's like a contradiction of itself na ewan. Lol. Tama ba yung sinasabi ko? I'm not sure eh.
It's funny, how some narcissistic, self-obsessed, egocentric bastards who care about nothing else but themselves, actually hate themselves. Can you just taste the irony? I can. Really. And it doesn't taste good.
I was standing kanina sa may gate, like 5 minutes ago. Wala lang. I was just standing there. Then I looked up sa sky. I felt like someone or something was there. Then I saw the moon. It's shining real bright up there. The moon is never lonely. I wish I was the moon.
I've something to say to someone. Actually, I've LOTS to say. Pero I can't seem to organize all these thoughts. It's all jumbled up lang in my head. Uhm. Siguro with a little nudging I'll be able to say what's on my mind.
I miss my friends. I miss weng, JC, anton, sol, miguel, red. I miss them all. I miss hanging out with them. Kasi when I'm with them, I feel really brave. Vulnerable, but brave.
I hate my impulsiveness. It's what usually gets me in trouble and stuff. Rawr. I keep telling myself to think twice before doing anything, but it seems I never learn.
Parang Tekken. I keep RDS 4'ing even though I know I'll eat some stupid launcher if it gets blocked. I even do RDS d+4 even though it's so ferkin' obvious and everyone can practically see it coming from a mile away and I get punished real bad for it. I just never learn.
Ferkin. I like the word. Ferkin.
There's this book I'm reading right now. There are three main characters, namely, J, L, and H. J and H are best friends. J and L are lovers, but their relationship seems really ferked up. I mean, they're on and off and stuff. Anyway. H is, apparently, in love with J. And it's weird, really, because J is like the biggest jerk on Earth, no, the biggest jerk in the entire ferkin' universe. H gets tired of J, and starts to stay away. J has one totally fucked up love life.
That's all I know about the story right now. Anyway, I hate the story, somehow. Kasi I can somehow see my life in that story. Lol. You guys figure out who J, H, and L is in my story.
It's weird, actually. Earlier, I was reading the book, and I got to this chapter, and I'm like, "wtf, dejavu?" Lol. The things happening to one character is the same thing happening to my life. Bugger.
Oh yeah, before I forget. While I was watching the moon kanina, 1234 played on MTV. Weird, kasi I was thinking of the person I wanted to sing that song to. Even if I don't sing well (understatement), I really want to sing to that person. Wala lang. Pero I don't thing that person wants to hear me singing 1234. And it's not just because of my voice. Actually, it's probably more of not care than not want. I think not caring is more painful.
I hate you. (tamaan ang tatamaan. bahala kayo mag-isip.)
I love you. (see note above. though I doubt mababasa 'to nung pinapatamaan ko.)
Gawd, I'm speaking (or writing) in taglish again. I'm sabaw.
There's still something like, 500ml of Absolut here. Hrmmm. I wonder.
What's that thing called? Kuliti? Or Guliti? Whatever. Ewan. How do you get those ba? I'm not buying that "boso" crap. Ang weird, kasi parang napaka-prone ko sa ganun. I have one ngayon sa right eye ko. Annoying. Ang pangit tignan. I wanna poke my eye out. I'm worried. Kasi isn't this supposedly a bacterial infection or something? I'm wearing contacts eh... Could it be na it's from my contacts? o_o Ewan. I'll shrug this one off nalang. *shrug* Ayan, it's off na.
I need you. Seriously. Pero if you don't need (or probably want) me, I can't force you, right? Ewan ko lang, pero parang this applies to two people ngayon. Pero in different ways ah. Ayun.
Enrollment tomorrow. Hay. Haggard day nanaman. Ugh.
Ay onga pala. Parents and siblings won't be here tomorrow. Anyone wanna crash? May karaoke kami (with 2 huge speakers for some real noise), and there's alcohol. Dali dali, this doesn't happen often! I don't wanna be stuck at home with the kasambahay. :| Who knows what she might do to me. LOL.
You're leaving tomorrow. :-s And I haven't even had the chance to talk to you seriously. :-< Please don't leave me this way. At least talk to me first before you leave. Lol. Ang kapal ng mukha ko to ask something like that from you. I mean, what right do I have? Gawd. Slap me nalang with that sexy french curve.
So, I'm really sabaw. I think I'll go hang out with Sol for a while. I'll probably have some 7-up with him or something.
